I did a stupid thing

Between 2002 and 2004, I was writing an epic fantasy novel. I had 491 pages down, and then I just stopped in early 2004. Over the years, I would pull up the manuscript and do some edits here and there, and try and fail to get back into the story. I had not moved the story forward since early 2004.

About a month ago, I started reading it again, and refrained from editing. While reading, I made lists of character names, cities, towns, castles, kingdoms, etc. Anything that had a name went on a list.

I finished reading a couple weeks ago and I’m moving the story forward again. I now have 525 pages down. I’m still not as connected to the story as I was fifteen years ago, but having the lists of names helps.

I had crude maps of the kingdoms, but at some point I threw them away. I just bought this big sketch pad. I’m going to try redrawing the maps from memory, so I can keep track of what’s what and where.

I had also written several spinoff short stories and novellas that were connected to this novel. But I threw those away too. Some of those stories had received positive feedback from editors.

I can’t believe I developed so much self-doubt and threw out all that work. I’m going to finish this novel and the entire series before I start the editing process.

3 thoughts on “I did a stupid thing”

  1. self doubt( I call it stinkin thinkin) is a favorite trick the enemy (saten)puts in our heads. If he can get us to doubt ourselves then hes got us right where he wants us and can begin to try to wreak all sorts of havoc. Im glad you recognize it for what it is. When you see it coming on you can guard yourself from it. Dont allow it to manifest. Psalm 27: 1 thru 3

  2. That’s right Brother!! Your determination is inspiring, and is very encouraging. Thanks so much!

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